Healing, I am healing. What a wonderful feeling. A bit like a roller-coaster, there are ups and downs but in the end it's worth it. The fear, the doubt, the wonderful exhilaration all come together and as tears start streaming down my face, I do not know if it is of relief, shock or pure happiness. Either way, it does not matter.
Finally, I am happy again.
It's hard and it's not over but it's a beginning. As my smiles start resurfacing, rays of hope shine through my heart. There is so much wonderful, intriguing and exciting all around. Pain is but a drop in my ocean of beauty.
The conflict between hurt and love inside of my soul will keep happening but I trust life. I trust that I am worth something. Even in the case that I am not, I still have a reason for sticking around and working my positivity through every situation I encounter. That reason is aesthetics. There is nothing more soothing than beauty, harmony and excellence. Appreciating what I have is reason enough.
I do not need an excuse. No one can take that away from me. I can see, touch, hear, smell, taste. I can walk, run dance. I can talk, yell, communicate. I can write. I can love. No one can take that away from me.
I have built myself back up in the past, nothing will keep me from doing it again. I am as strong as I am willing to be. Lingering in pain is easy but useless. Moving forward is full of promises.
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