Here are a few words, that escaped my mind to live in a world which cannot be materialized. Every human, during their lives, no matter how short or long they live, build an Empire. That Empire might be people who love you, people who hate you, places and memories, smells and looks and funny stories. It might be a pet, or an actual Empire. What really counts, is what that Empire means. It will still be alive, even after you die.
When I say my Empire is down, it means I've lost a few people including myself, I left them or ...they left me. It means that I don't feel as happy or as secure anymore. Our Empires are cocoons to which we can run and hide. Mine feels empty. Teenage years are full of ups and downs and I am going through a down. No matter what that down actually is, I need to remind myself that the one element which I feel like I lost is not what consists of my Empire.
What is the root to my kingdom are my ideas and my very own vision of the world. It feels like my Empire has fallen and for all I know it might be very true. However, I am still standing. I am still strong. As long as I can stand, as long as I can scream, I will do so. "Throw me at the wolves, and I will return leading the pack." I believe in my own strength. And with that strength, with my weak and feeble arms, I will build a whole new Empire, a better one. I might be tired, but oh, when I'll come back, no one will be ready for what they'll witness.
What is the root to my kingdom are my ideas and my very own vision of the world. It feels like my Empire has fallen and for all I know it might be very true. However, I am still standing. I am still strong. As long as I can stand, as long as I can scream, I will do so. "Throw me at the wolves, and I will return leading the pack." I believe in my own strength. And with that strength, with my weak and feeble arms, I will build a whole new Empire, a better one. I might be tired, but oh, when I'll come back, no one will be ready for what they'll witness.
Just think, when you feel sad and oppressed and you forget to see the beauty in life, remember that you are just working on your rebirth. It works just like a computer. You see, when you press "restart" it has to shut down, and the screen gets pitch black in order for it to start up again, and blind you with its luminosity.
So right now, I am telling myself that when I will get out of what feels like a gloomy dimension of a terrible movie, I'll end up some place beautiful, I'll end up where I'm supposed to.
If I can write down any piece of advice for myself so that I never forget it, it will be that: We regret the things we did not do, and not our little bits of craziness which push us to do incredibly stupid things.
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