Tired. I am so tired of reading about senseless violence, unnecessary hatred and abhorrent loss. What is another terrorist act in the sea of blood we are facing as humans ? What is done is done and we find ourselves stuck in a world we do not want, we do not understand and we do not want to live in. We are powerless as we become cloistered in fear. Stop living or face the possibility of being murdered, what sort of choice is that?
It is so hard not to give up yet there is no choice to make but that one. Walk a little faster, be a little more suspicious of the stranger asking for directions and avoid gatherings, these are only a few of the measures people will take in order to push away in their own little way, the threat of terrorism. This does not scream happy life waiting to be lived anymore. Instead, each time a life is taken in horrid circumstances every single soul that learns about it loses a little of their hopes for humanity and, instead, gives in to unwavering cynicism.
This new barbaric reality we are faced with exposes what we feared all along, we are not safe. We never are 100% certain that nothing bad will be brought upon us by others but we can at least know that the likelihood is not high. This is not the case anymore. We are threatened, always.
What world am I growing up in??
One where everything is destroyed and everyone is killed by both ideals and brainwashed idiots. Capitalism, over-consumption or religious terrorism, no matter what it is we seem to always find the best tools to turn whatever we have into a rotten reality.
If there are moments in my existence I wish life were fair, it's every time I learn about a crime so unfathomable my body physically hurts. No words or a lot of very pretty ones, it doesn't make a difference and that is what is scary. What can we do if not give in to fear? We are all both predators and preys to each other, that's how nature works. That part is understandable, what isn't however is how the reason of it all went from survival to evil self-righteousness.
I wish I didn't have a new reason every few weeks to cry and deplore the lack of decency in such a huge number of human beings.
We are lucky to be able to spread even an ounce of kindness in a world of despair so let's do it.
With Love
